Gosh I had nearly forgotten what my blog looked like. Hello! I’m back, and I’m SO thrilled to be. My mind has been going insane from not feeling creative or in any frame of mind to be blogging these past couple of months and I’ve hated every second of it, its awful not to feel the need to write a blog post and share things with my faithful readers because you really are the most encouraging bunch!
Anyhow, things as you can imagine have been pretty hectic these past few months. I think the last time I properly posted was my January wrap-up (I hope!)? It was after my birthday and it was all cute etc, and well its all been going on since then. I’ll definitely update you all with life in general as soon as I can but as you’re about to find out, university has taken over my life…
Today I have literally just finished my last assignment for year two and it feels crazy that I’m so close to finishing my second year, I mean I’ve worked hard but it feels like its gone far too quickly. Even more surprisingly is that despite this seemingly rapid pace I have been struggling quite a bit in terms of getting used to the jump from first to second year and well the grading system still bothers me. I’ve been getting grades from 52-69% in both my modules, and while I know they’re okay grades I just feel that its not really credited with the OU. I mean we’re expected to get 85% for a first and this year that has seemed a million miles away, whereas first year I actually got at least two. While I know “its not all about grades” etc it was still a bit disheartening to be working so hard and to not be getting marks I had hoped. However, I do think it has something to do with one of my tutors and his style of marking. Not to be whiny but handing in a 2000 word essay and receiving one small paragraph for feedback was a little bit of a slap in the face, but never mind what do I know about teaching?
I am enjoying my modules though. That is the big love I have for my degree course, is that I can choose whatever module I fancy. Since October I’ve been studying English Literature and Philosophy, both of which I LOVE. They’re fascinating subjects; I’ve opened up my mind to the vast amount of literature there is out there, and I now have two favourites Candide or Optimism by Voltaire and a play called Dancing at Lughnasa by Brian Friel and now I just want to discover more. The one bit I’m slacking in for English is my analysis of the texts, I make a point and give a good example but I struggle so bad for extending my explanations they’re just okay haha. With Philosophy, questions such as “what makes us who we are?”, “do we really have obligations to the state, why?” like anything where there isn’t a straight answer I just adore discussing. What has helped me in this module is previously studying it at A Level, so I recognised a lot of philosophers and yeah just studying them has been brilliant and its made me think A LOT.
So term two has been a constant wave of essay writing, reading, and panicking about exams (which are in June eek!). I’m a stress head at the best of times, it really has been a tough term but I’m keeping my chin up thanks to those supporting me (i.e my Sam)and I’m nearly at the finishing line. I now have six weeks until my English exam, followed by my philosophy the next day. Three hours each, and I’m not sure how I’m going to manage revising a years worth of work from two modules.
Words of encouragement are welcome, exam tips, you name it, I will appreciate it! I’ll be back as soon as possible to give you a proper update on life and of course my trip to Berlin that I am DYING to tell you all about because its cute and wonderful.
Lastly, I really hope you’re all well and life is treating you well. If we haven’t spoken in a while drop me a message, I’d love to catch up with you.